but to feel that life is really unfair.
u work so hard and yet u dun get rewarded
whereas those who arent suppose to be rewarded
get all the benefits
then what's the point of doing so well
what's the point of studying so hard
when someone who doesnt study,
or even fail his course
get something he wants
am i really foolish to think this way
or what.
i'm really going to break down soon.
life seems so contradicting
arent those who do well suppose to be rewarded?
or am i just jealous?
my good for nothing brother fails his course and he can buy a xbox 360
he gets so many things though he doesnt do well.
what bout me.
i dun even seem to be rewarded for my results
he didnt do well and he gets rewarded
if this continues,
isnt this like an encouragement for him not to do well
but yet at the same time he can get his things
i tried closing an eye
but i realised i cant.
are my parents just bias?
sometimes i really want to give up.
but no one knows what im thinking
homework just pile up in my messy room
i just dun have the mood to do.
i really want to have a rest
to go out with 2/5 peeps.
I WANT TO ICESKATE.
i dun want to go for that competition
that adds on to my worries.
I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH
to just scream out everything in my heart
"just face it and deal it, that's it! "--jiayu<3>
thanks bestie, for the encouragement yesterday.
since i cant stop it from happening,
i will just face it and finish it,
once and for all.
loveee you lotsss!<333>
thanks presley, chaypioh, junneng, yanxiang, adwin, cherngyew, russell, xueting, roanna and others for the support and encouragement :D
&still trying to find a happy ending
