When Your love rain down;


I'm glad today is rather productive, for me. hahaha. I washed my school shoes in like how many monthsss. Then went to bukit merah library to do work, though I stopped chinese halfway after being discouraged by the fact that I got many mistakes, I did finish amath tuition homework :D and a chem worksheet which I owed for don't know how long.

English tuition tomorrow and I hope the teacher comes before I officially sign up for the tuition. Perhaps having tuitions on saturday may be a good thing for me because I wont waste my time going out but when there are gatherings, I would have to give them a miss D: And another bad thing, I eat subway like every saturday D: One day, seriously, I will be a fat pig =/ I think I gained a kilogram or two this holdiay, SAD.

I wanna keep my fringe, just like how it was before I cut my hair but it's causing the pimples to come outtttttttt D:

There's exactly 4more months to the start of the main paper for O'level, I think. MORE PRESSURE AND STRESS, LESS SLEEP & MORE PIMPLES, NO TIME TO EXERCISE AND ACCUMULATION OF FATZZzz. Nightmare.

sighsighsigh. Soon, you would see the dissipation of my smile. LOL.

I dread school reopen, the change in sleeping time, waking up time, meal time, everything.

Set her heart on fire, fire of passion and yearning for You, Lord.


A day of activities that disrupt the entire schedule for the day but perhaps it's worth it? Lunch at Bugis with aunties and uncle. Then went shopping for awhile with mummy at Bugis street, bought a dress/long blouse. She went facial so I slacked at the beauty centre while waiting then we went shopping again and I bought another dress :D Dinner at plaza sing but I was moody.

Why are some people just so stubborn and refuse to listen after repeated warnings and even scoldings but all they do is just scold you and think that you are controlling their lives? Does listening to people seem so hard that they just shut you off then moment you open your mouth? Why do they always think that you are being rude, especially in public. I cant understand adults, at all, for goodness sake!
Furthermore, what's wrong with wearing shorts in Singapore. Like hello, the weather is scotching hot, who would in the right mind wear jeans everyday? I cant believe my mum dont let me wear fbt out or even shorts to tuition. Although it's in orchard, still, it's only tuition, not a fashion parade unless you have other activities organised right?

Nevertheless, I am shocked to receive Elena's letter/card today! No wonder she asked me for my address, and to think of it, she gave me a rather reasonable reply that left me with nothing to say no. Clever girl :D hahaha.
Thanks girl, for being there when I'm down and needed prayers/encouragements. When I need your shoulders, I will tell you. haha.



ohohoh, and sunday when I went for tuition, I met Nigel at the lobby, shocked at the sight that he wore long pants and long sleeve. When we entered the lift, there was music blasting and the next moment, I realised he had a hi-five bag! super duper cool, from london. Then he continued blasting Hillsongs music in tuition and became super holy that made the whole class burst into laughters.


God is good, all the time.
All the time, God is good!

Goodbye.



The evening was magnificent with corrugated pink sky but yet the darkness in her heart blinds out every beauty of the earth.

Sometimes flesh seems to be strong but the spirit is just weak, and is about to crumble into pieces at any point of time.Many times, the question of my purpose in life just struck my mind, and my faith slowly faint. I feel ashamed of this life that I am leading, the life that was planned with a purpose but yet I seem to be avoiding. It is only in the weakest moment that I turn to God and that isnt something I should be doing, I know it very clearly but still, I really don't know what exactly am I doing.

I know, I should be the light, to my family, my friends and the people around me but many times I just keep moving away from the truth. My family needs salvation, and the increase of faith. Looking at how my brother react to the stressful intern-worklife, I searched deeper into my heart and somehow realised the problem lies with me, for not being influencial enough, for not being a good christian or even setting a good example.

" If I really cant take it, I will jump off the building."
These words came out of my brother's mouth as I lay awake on bed. I'm serious, tears flow down my cheeks. I have never seen him so weak before.

God, have your way in him, and in the family. Let him trust in you and let your peace fill his soul. Amen.

Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strenghten you, yes I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. -Isaiah 41:10


It is only when things turn wrong or start to go out of place that we will call unto the Lord, but nevertheless, He was, He is, and He will always be faithful to His beloved childen. Glory to Him!

I'm glad Alethea's more relieved now after that mistake caused by the doctors. But at least it really showed me God's love and grace upon his childen.

God do answers prayers!

Sentosa yesterday was totally fun and wild. Luckily alethea's mood was quick to change after that sms from her mother, otherwise there wouldnt be camwhoring sessions. You should have seen the difference in her smiles. Suntanning was fun with two retards, and now I'm like so red that I look as though I'm drunk, seriously. I cant believe we actually bought beach accessories like mat and sandcastle materials. hahaha. And I think we are so fun to be with that we attracted a cute 9 years old girl who played with us the whole morning. LOL.

&&& I GOT TAOPOK BY ALETHEA WHEN SHE GOT SO HAPPY THEN SILI CAME AND SAT ON ME TOO. WALAOO. but it was fun :D

Lunch at food republic with lots and lots of xiaolongbao :D totally fattenning, especially with icecream and smoothie in the morning, plus whole packet of chips. After that we went shopping, and I bought a blouse from pull and bear, pity it was abit short to be a dress. More outings with them after O's! cant waitttt :D

Thursday will be clique outing at Fangyu's house, baking of cookies and study dates, hopefully there will be time. I seriously seriously need to study. Everyone is like studying 6-9 hours a day but I have been watching television, shopping. But how exactly do you define studying?
Dear God, grant me inspiration and motivation for my homework and revision!

My body is like warm, because of the suntanning. But I think I'm going to have a flu, ironic.

I'll never leave you, nor forsake you. - Hebrews 13:5

Somehow, memories of the past begin to start racing in my mind again, perhaps because of the fact that the four years in Secondary school is ending in just 5months. Which means I only have like bout 4months plus to study, which honestly speaking, isnt enough. Time really flies, looking through the photos, I realised how much I have grown. {yes, from the chubby me to now} And I guess, the most memorable days of my four years would definitely be secondary two life; or somehow that's what I think up till now.

Cell yesterday was more of worship and sharing. Benny shared about worship then we started talking about NS as he is going in in July. Come to think of it, I didnt really realised that I had known him for 5 years, and next week would be the last week he will be with us, after which he wouldnt be our leader anymore and maybe he will be changing church. It's quite sad D:

{ I shall stop here first, going see my auntie's new condo near plaza sing :D byebyeeee! }

Everything I once held dear, I count it all as loss.
Lead me to the cross


Cell outreach at Samantha's house was wonderful, especially her super luxurous big awesome house with a basement that has a pool table, mahjong table and drum/guitar corner. Plus that swimming pool in the middle of the house. Staying at her basement is way enough. And yes, her parents' room toilet is like bigger than my room as they have a jacuzzi there. Amazing okay. haha. Although it was supposed to be like an outreach to our friends, in the end none could make it and so it ended up as a cell outing for us. Plenty of food left, girls were in charge of fondue, pizzas and the arranagement and stuff while the kind maid helped us to cook though it was supposed to be our job haha. And she ate some while cooking haha, funny. Beehoon, hotdogs, fishballs, nuggets, pizzas, chocolates... gosh, damn fattening =/

So we did our things at the basement while waiting for someone who didnt turn up in the end. Played games and the half an hour stress game with jianhao was like tiring, and stressful haha. At about 3plus we wanted to go outdoor for games but it started to rain so we decided to play in the rain. We were totally drenched, seriously, but fun haha. Went back to the house and almost got scolded by sam's parents. Bathed, changed and cabbed down to church. {then something embarrassing happened LOL}


&&& Ohmygoodness lah! I almost got pickpocketed yesterday at Bugis' this fashion. I only realised when I was about to go orchard for tuition, but luckily, I went to buy a pair of 3/4 pants. super unlucky. I guess that person wanted to cut my bag to get somethings but failed and cut my pants=.= idiotic ! Thank God I didnt lose anything :D

Amaths and physics lessons today. then had lunch at KFC at Jurong Point with jingru, elena, ferny and yuan. plus we bought sushi there to eat. seriously like pigs haha, especially yuan lah. Went library to study/hw. Mum called to say she cooking dinner :D
There wont be electricity next tuesday so she has to clear the food in the freezer. Food looks nice but she cooked brown rice which I disliked. bleah.

ELENA, if you're seeing this, please cheer up and dont be upset cause of your mum. she meant well, and is concern bout your studies thats why. Just work hard and we can go study together :D Trust in the Lord!


Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAINE AND NICKY!

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

15 July'92
Nan Hua High
205'06, 403,08
Church of Our Saviour