& stuck in her own fairytale story.

& i'm breaking down, once again

it isn't what i want, neither is it something that i can control.
it's really very difficult to control one's emotions.
one moment you are happy and the other, you feel so depressed.
just what is happening, so suddenly?
when the matter piles up thoughts in your mind,
would you find it very difficult to stop thinking?
your heart tells you not to worry about it,
but your mind just keeps thinking.
how do you stop it?
how do you manage the stress,
with piles of homework filling the entire room.

i'm really getting damn emo nowadays
and i really cant stop it.
tears cant help but to fall.
yet not many people know.

i guess it's time to move on.
no point crying over spilled milk.
it can't be undone.
but whenever i think or even try to stop myself from worrying
i more i will worry.
one after another,
it seems to be a routine.
i really hope it's not.
i don't like a life like this.

shall'nt talk 'bout typical school hours.
anyway, me john yijun bryan and lots of people are choosing coffee table and book shelves for the SAC! may be going ikea on sat with them. depends.

heard something UNBELIEVABLE from yaozhong.

training today was great!!!!!!!
something that made me happy today.
i guess, the only thing.

nanhua pri kids came to our school to play.
they are pro lor.
better than us. haha
i saw shen lao shi!
haha. yayee he still remember me :D

played single today! :D
coach say i played WELL, VERY WELL!
i won gabriel!haha
and and and the whole girls team are getting shoes :D
i hope its butterfly.
i dun wan da wei one. so ugly haha

as i wasnt feeling happy today, vented my anger during cca time.
especially while smacking. just use all your energy.
play and play and play.
till you are like dead tired to even think bout anything.

thanks presley for letting me smack!
and train your defence :D

saw yangping in school today.

home, luckily bus wasnt that squeeze-y today.
if not, i will be even more pissed off. heh.

rawr for now! cant log in to ace learning to do e maths self study.

I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR BIRTHDAY FROM MY PARENTS!
GUITARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
heh!

hopefully can, if not christmas present is still acceptable. :D

my bro bought a $259 unknown brand bag which is like damn BIG
bigger than... okay not me. but when i carry it, its like 2 times my waist?
something like that.and the strap is something like seatbelt.

i wanna get that tagger self customise bag! price starts from $100 siaz.
i need new BAGSSSSSSSSSSS.

CIAO.

i'm going to do my best now! watch out satan! i'm not going to let your evil intention win over me or God. get out of my life 'cause i dun like you interfering with my purpose driven life.

&still trying to find a happy ending

been a long time since i updated.
no time. yea.

30march

threeTHREE day!
wore class tee whole day.
ms loy looks funny. but still nice cos she wear with us

THANKS MS LOY FOR THE APPLES AND THAT NEVER BURNT OUT CANDLES!
<333>

haha. changed sitting arrangement
i dun wan!
i cant ask cy, zy, qihui or yanchng when i dun understand le.
somemore the new place got ALOOOOOOOOOOTTTT OF REFLECTION
i cant see
told ms loy le.
hope she change for me. cos i wont be able to concentrate too.

31 march

sent my bro to macritchee( duno how to spell) for canoeing
went sch for cip.
was in the same group as huizhen vivian zhaoming chaypioh wikian sean brandon weiliat
went to blocks of flats to collect newspapers and old clothes.
was divided into smaller groups, diff groups diff levels.
me brandon and wikian one group.

i think the cip's fun haha
went around, knocking on everyone's doors.
alot of them didnt open.
guess they are still sleeping.

then i realised alot of family duno have doorbell
some dun have the peeping hole.
i find it quite weird lah haha

got bitten by lots of mosquites =.=
but nvm haha.
after going round clem, i still prefer my house here.
haha. if only we can collect newspapers around delta.

i saw this house, the gate is sooooooo 'attractive'.
door purple, one side of gate red, the other blue.
then on the door, it says

'' this place is monitored by..."
then got 2 guns lol.

after cip, went back to school.

had lunch at mac. with the group (minus away huizhen who went tuition)
though i didnt have breakfast but wasnt really that hungry
maybe too hungry then cant eat finish=/

joked around, keep lauging.
then xinzhi came.
chatted, stoned. something like tat.
then cos outside mac got construction, so whenever we feel vibrations,
we would look at zhaoming.
damn funny lah.

was late for cell, once again.
forgot to bring extra tee cos in the morning my bro rush me.
so had to go home to bathe and change
cant expect me to go church after cip
so yea, reached church at bout 4.45

praise and worship, then some activites.
which asked questions like
what made u happy in the past 2 weeks,
what made u cry...
had word.
John 16:33

went for service.
damn high during praise and worship.
my fave song! haha
ONE WAY!

prayer. prayed for singapore youths and indonesian youths.
sermon by pastor glenn!
on ''who are you, what's in a name''
he told us 2 lame jokes too.

we are prince and princess of God!

yea,after church, went dawson for dinner.
then ntuc to get things.
i was freezing lah. very coooold.
went to buy this jap biscuit.
something like wangwang xiao mantou
the small circular biscuit that melts in the mouth.
but its diff brand.
then my mum saw already laugh

mum: ''you think u baby ar!''
me: "haha why?"
mum: "you ate that when u were very very young!"
me: "but nice wad"
mum: " last time i always put in a container for u to bring to sch to eat"
me: "really meh?"
mum: " yah dun remember?"
me: " dun care, i want to buy, i like"

haha and there is this cute cute chick at the front of the packaging haha

home, sms, then msn.
fell asleep while doing hw, as usual.

1 april

woke up at bout 10am.
didnt eat much for breakfast though my dad bought back.
I ATE THE BISCUIT I BOUGHT YST haha
i finish eating in one day=.=

was fooled by someone. haha
sian, i haven study chem!
hoooooooooooowwwwww!
no time leh. i still have to go orchard later.

go sony shop then tuition.
my earpiece something wrong.
hopefully can change.

4 hours straight of tuition later, luckily i bought sour skittles yst.
haha. though i know i wont need it that much but i got craving for sour stuffs.

i love the lyrics of the worship songs!

in troubled times, it's you i seek.

one way! jesus! You're the only one that i can live for.
you are the way, the truth and the light.
we live by faith and not by sight, for you!
we living all for you.

standing here, in your presence,
thinking of the good things u have done.
waiting here, patiently,
just to hear your still small voice again.

holy, rightheous, faithful to the end
saviour, healer, redemmer and friend

i will worship you for who you are,
i will worship you for who you are.

&still trying to find a happy ending