& stuck in her own fairytale story.

Secondary 4 life is totally SCREWED! How I wished I could always be a sec2 student :( I'm sorry if I'm not updating my abandoned blog but please understand that there isnt even time for me to revise or have time with God, let alone a blog eh?

It hasnt been a good week; not only me but mostly everyone. COMMON TEST IS SO DAMN SCREWED! Furthermore, with zonal competition, where was I supposed to find time from to study. I'm not surprised that I would see red underlined marks in my report card. oh please, everyone says i'm smart but please, I AM NOT. if i am, i wouldnt be so emotional when i didnt finish the paper. plus, im not like people who would get high high marks when i dont study, i arent! during the common test period, im already super duper stressed with piles and piles of things to do and people's comments just keep bothering me. Wth, when i study for ct, people say i mugger. PLEASE GROW UP. IF YOU'RE ME, WITH COMPETITION DURING CT, WOULD YOU STILL BE WATCHING TV AND SLACK YOUR HEAD OFF? obviously not right. just because i study for every test does not make me a mugger. in addition, a mugger is someone who would only surround him/her with books and books, maybe not even eating or socialising. for goodness sake, I AM NOT. how would you feel when people say that to you? everyone has studied while you were at competition then when u start studying, rushing for time and people say that. Put yourself in other's shoe, hello.

Basically, one word- SCREWED!
I seriously need TIME MANAGEMENT! majority/every paper, i lose marks because i didnt do finish. like wth, rush like siao and in the end still cant finish. for your info, this ct is the worst ever! so many questions yet only 1 hour, definitely setting a killer paper to force us to realise the need to study.

& I'm sorry that i cant control my tears, it seems like an involuntary reflex action to me when it is supposed to be a deliberate one. It aint my fault for having active tear glands right. God created me for a purpose.

Mrt-ed home, read 'my best friend's girl' then had a headache. I gave cell dinner a miss to rest at home then bused down to church. Really felt God's presence throughout, especially during the part of releasing your worries and receiving God's comfort and peace through meditation of his words. Praise and worship was good and we had an outdoor activity which made me feel amazed by God's creation. Walking alone along queenstown, I felt God talking to me, telling me not to be so stressed and to relax, enjoy his wonderful creation. And i realised when you sit down and just look at your surroundings, you will realised how rush people are and didnt realised that you are also the same. really wanna thank my cell for the laughters and everything, including prayers :D

Last of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERNY & JOHN! :D

&still trying to find a happy ending