POSTING SUCKS, TO THE CORE.

It's totally insane, I swear. What is the problem with the stupid posting ): It's too random already luh and ridiculous. SIGH. I woke up to get a shock of my life that I didnt get into my first three choices. It seems as though history repeated itself for me, just like how it was for my psle where I was posted to my 4th choice but somehow I managed to appeal into nhhs. But still, I can't accept the fact that I got into sa. Okay, maybe I'm better now but I dread going to school now, new school. I feel like going back to secondary school life again.
I stared at that message and tears flow, I couldn't control because I totally didn't expect myself to be posted there. Some people are happy cause they got their first choice, but majority didnt ): I thought if I couldnt get into tj, then definitely aj but sad to say, aj only accepted partial 7. Yes, that was how unlucky I was.

Everyone seems to be appealing, so what are my chances? I think I just gotta accept my fate of sa. Or maybe that is where God wants me to go since it's somewhere I didn't expect; perhaps He has a purpose for me there. " No one is here by chance" Perhaps all along it has just been my own thinking and words that other people say, that might not be always true, depending on circumstances. Maybe, like what my mum always tell me, it's a blessing in disguise, which I hope it is.
see:
T in pj wants to appeal to cj.
Y in cj wants to appeal to sa.
Q in sa wants to appeal to tj.
N in tj wants to appeal to vj.

ohman, if only we can arrange the exchange of places by ourselves!

I should learn, to accept the things given to me. To make the best out of the things I have. I hope I always have this thinking -.-
Alot of people posted to sa received calls from their ogl bout their og but I haven't! sigh, I seriously pray that I get adapted to the lectures and tutorial systems.

Tata. Hoping for the best.

Happy Lunar New Year! :D

Okay, so the optical shop didnt open and I had to open another pair of contacts, kinda wasted eh. Dinner with cousins, relatives and granny at forrest restaurant yesterday was okay, but my cousins and I had lots of camwhoring sessions :D:D celebrated emmanual, uncle loke and beatrice's birthday together.

NINJA IN DRESS! :D

hahaha, secret code, right gerald? haha.
Cousins came down from KL, and yayeeee, I had lots of photos with them (:

I shall go jogging tomorrow while the rest goes fishing. Gotta shed off those fatssss before school reopens but it seems kinda difficult though. I've been eating alot alot alot but amazingly, my bmi shows otherwise.

IT STATES THAT I'M AT RISK OF NUTRITIONAL DEFICIENCY DISEASE LOLLOLLOL! I can't believe it siaa. And my mum is the same weight as me. Oh man!

wooooohoooooooo, 1AA'99 class gathering at sentosa on wednesday. 205 girls' picnic at botanical garden on thursday.
Then results of posting on friday, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Okay,tata.

Damn, there is something wrong with my new pair of contacts ): My right side. Even with contacts, it's as though I'm not wearing it. Seriously, I think they didnt put the degree.
I gotta see whether it's still the same in the morning later, and if it's not, I have to call the optical shop to see if they're open on chinese new year eve. If not, I cant wear contacts for cny/whole of this week, which sucks ): hahaha.

It's chinese new year eveeeeeee.

So many things, so much food.I bet I'm getting fatter ):
sentosa, picnic, sentosa, picnic. wow. And I'm not even tanned, oh man!

It's 2am now but I'm still so awake, sigh.

Memories recurring so vividly that I thought you were there...


Guitar in the morning. I learnt how to strum the tune of Blessed be Your name. But I take a very long time to change chords haha. Gotta practise (: Lunch-ed at queenstown, shanghai food. heh! Its been a long time since I ate that.

I can't wait for my cousins to come down from KL. I can't wait for chinese new year, new clothes, more money, hopefully. I can't wait for picnic with clique and the girls! :DD But definitely mum would be nagging bout the mess in the house. And posting results would be out soon, and school would reopen very shortly ):

Changing my bedsheets just now reminds me of NACLI. Their bedsheets are blue too. I want my red bedsheets ): But it has to be washed haha. I felt as though I was working for some hotel, like some maid. I took out the pillowcase and changed it into the new one, bolster, quilt cover and stuff then mum came in and say "you never take out the pillow protector and quilt protector ah?" I stared at her okay. When I was about to finish everything she came in and told me. hahaha so I took out the pillow one again, but not the quilt though. After that she came in again and asked me to exchange bedsheets with my brother cos his very easily dirtied. -.- In the end, I didnt. hahaha.
Gerald called me Maria. LOL.

I feel like playing wii, guitar hero world tour. haha. Yay, meeting Elena in the morning then tuitioning sili in the afternoon:D
I realised I don't know where I spent my money, and that's bad. ): ordered havaianas from john and still waiting for it, bought a pair of shorts and I seriously think the rest was ALL on food -.- LOL been eating alot lately, I bet the needle would swing towards the right, awwwww.

Bio, phy, bio, phy, bio, phy?
4H2, 3H2 1H1, 4H2, 3H2 1H1?
I hate to make decisions.

Plus I wanna go back to nh for cny celebration but there is this JPI gathering at sentosa I think. Sigh.



Oh great and mighty one,
with one desire we come,
that You'd reign,
that You'd reign in us.

In December,
Before/ in the midst of packing:

Sometimes, your heart tells you to do something, but in the end, you are afraid of making the wrong choices. That's how I feel now. I'm very scared I'd regret my choices. I dreamt of njc before o's, and I have been asking, whether that is where God wants me to be in. But I have chosen not to put nj due to the huge and enormous number of applicants that makes me stand no chance, like maybe 0.00000000000000000000001% Tj as first choice isnt that bad, but there would not be many/any nanhua people there! since its like at the other end of Singapore, other than the IP students like shufen and yintong. Everyone is asking me to put nj first but I've submitted, and I seriously hope it isn't as bad as what I think. God will make all things work together for my good, amen!

I gotta learn to trust and have faith. Wherever I'm posted to, it's His will. But somehow, I get really sad when everyone is trying hc and nj cause I could have been the one if not the fact of that unexpected sub.

over.
Somehow now, I really hope I go tj. ahhhhhhhh *prays hard*

tata, lunch then meeting fangyu :D

You stay the same through the ages,
Your love never changes.
There may be pain in the night,
but joy comes in the morning.
amen.

I really gotta thank God for the friends in my life, helping me through and encouraging me each and every time no matter what.
Especially keann, gerald, elena. You guys really make me laugh and feel better before and after the results.

Thanks gerald, for the tingting's song and samurai steps which really make me look retard in front of my com/phone :D

And clique, alethea, sili and many manymany. I'm feeling much better. It might not be that bad, blessing in disguise perhaps. Haha, it might be like psle that time. I will trust that it's God's will and there is a purpose to everything!

Not because of who I'm,
but because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done,
but because of who You're.

I am, a flower quickly fading.
Here today, and gone tommorow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
a vapour in the wind.

Still You, hear me when I'm calling.
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling.
You told me who I am.
I'm Yours.

Nothing can separate, even if i ran away
your love never fails
i know i still make mistakes
you have new mercies for me everyday
your love never fails
you stay the same through the ages
your love never changes
there may be pain in the night but joy comes in the morning
and when the oceans rage
i dun have to be afraid
because i know that u love me
your love never fails

YOU MAKE ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR MY GOOD!

Results in less than 24hrs.
I'm really feeling very helpless. I'm really scared I can't get into jc, or even if I do, my GP would kill me. Mum is asking me to go poly if I get double digit 'cause I'd really struggle with GP if I go jc. And if that's the case, I might not be able to get my full A level cert, which means I'd have wasted 2 years of my life and I'm no where. It's kinda true, but I don't know what course to take in poly and I don't know what I wanna be in future yet. People say if that's the case, then go jc first and take the 2 years to consider. Then yet again, the question is, what am I gonna do in uni? I still have to make decisions and they want me to think now cause if I really go jc, I wouldnt have the time to think about it. SIGH

I know GP is hard, and I'm at a disadvantage because my english sucks, and I do not read enough of newspaper about current affairs. I've been trying to make an initiative to have that interest started but.. sigh.

So, the deciding moment would be tommorow. I really really pray and hope for the best.

Jeremiah 29:11
" For I know the plans I have for you" , declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

John 14:1
" Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me."

Thanks Keann for the encouragement :D
God has a plan and purpose for me, and I gotta trust Him for everything that happens. No matter how hard it's gonna be, I'll have faith and do it.

Badminton with ferny, john, chaohsien, bryan and jack this morning and I laughed like mad when the shuttlecock landed on ferny's head. I think I laughed continuously for 5min? haha.
Mrted to Jurongpoint for lunch at subway. JP2 is really big, okay I mean there's alot of shops haha.


once again, conversation with gerald is funny!


Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
they think we samurai
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
anytime
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
also can
QIANYI ; says:
hahahahhahahahhaa
QIANYI ; says:
HAHAHAHAH
QIANYI ; says:
FUNNY
QIANYI ; says:
LOL
QIANYI ; says:
i can imagine u saying that haha
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
i'm like laughing now!
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
thanks qian yi!
QIANYI ; says:
hahahah
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
CONTAGIOUS!
QIANYI ; says:
im laughing too
QIANYI ; says:
lol
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
hahaha!!
QIANYI ; says:
like retardedly in front of the com
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
LOL
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
i ever talked to my monitor
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
LOL
QIANYI ; says:
hahahahah
QIANYI ; says:
sounds emo
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
i asked my mon "why are you not feeling tired?"
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
:S
QIANYI ; says:
LOL
QIANYI ; says:
WHATTTTTTTTTT
QIANYI ; says:
HAHHA
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
that was in the past lar
QIANYI ; says:
hahahahhahaha
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
when i was darn bored
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
LOL
QIANYI ; says:
ahahaha GOSH REALLY FUNNY
QIANYI ; says:
HAHAHA
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
lawls
QIANYI ; says:
IF ONLY LAUGHING MAKES ME HAAVE PACS LOL!



I'm like damn damn damn sad now cause my parents cursed me, saying that I can't get into jc. wth. boo. haha. I mean they say I never think of other alternatives if I cant get good results. They want me to go see poly open hse, but at least I'm going ngee ann open hse tmr with shereen and marianne they all. :D

But anyhow, I gotta trust God for whatever my results and postings are. His plans. But of course, hopefully, it's what I want and hoped for too. heh.

I've decided.



So today, I spent the entire afternoon at Starbucks at valleypoint, recaping my math and reading a book. Tutoring sili math tmr :D At least I've got something to do lol.

I feel like going ngeeann poly open hse but no one seems to want to go=/
Gerald's performing haha.

Tata.

Sorry, but yes, it's all your fault.
fullstop.



Tabletennis in the morning but didnt play much. I need training someone, somewhere, somehow. urgh. Whatever. Then we went back school for cheap and nice food, chatted with ms lim, laughed. Badminton for the entire time after that. It started to rain so we went home at about 3plus.


I need things to occupy me, seriously. I know what I need to do, somehow I'm just lazy.

Elena's changing her braces colour tommorow and I HAVEN'T EVEN PUT SEPARATORS OR EXTRACTED MY TEETH D:

Gosh, it's gonna be a long long wait till 12th Feb. Somehow, I want to get my braces done, yet at the same time I'm afraid.

I'm damn damn damn bored, but at least there's tabletennis with presley, fangyu, cherngyew and the rest tmr :D

I knew I had already started the year badly by falling sick, now the feeling is worse. It isn't that I wanted to do so but something in me just couldn't stop it. Somehow, I know that I failed, terribly. But the only thing I can do is to hold on to that tiny thought that kept me going.




It's terrible, i know.
sorry.

Conversation with Gerald is funny! I really can't stop laughing in front of the computer, and I totally look like a retard thanks to him haha!


Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
going to sleep soon?
QIANYI ; says:
not yet. i guess 2
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
haha
QIANYI ; says:
yup unless i really cant take it haha
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
so bless i can't contain it
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
so much i got to give it away
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
HAHA
QIANYI ; says:
WHAT! HAHAHAHHA
QIANYI ; says:
GOSH
QIANYI ; says:
this is funny. lol
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
that's the song
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
we sang today
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
first song
QIANYI ; says:
yup i know
QIANYI ; says:
haha
QIANYI ; says:
cos i said i cant take it then u typed the song out ha
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
LOL
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
YEAh
QIANYI ; says:
it shall go on my blog. haha.
Gerald - Problems are giants in our lives! But they will fall says:
awesome


It's glad to know that my laughter is contagious LOL! we started crapping on the comments for a photo on fb when miah was kinda pissed at the fact that we treated it like msn haha. And he brought the topic of pingpong queen in, weird.

THANKS ELENA,

I LOVE YOU! :D


POK2!! sent:

Dear Heavenly Father,i thank you for qianyi!i thank you for this pretty and sweet princess of urs God!thank you so much for seeing her through the year 2008.thank you for watching over her,guiding her,showering ur love,care and concern on this child of urs.thank you for also being there for her in her diffcult times&during the stressful period of her Os.and so Lord God,as we enter a new year today i ask that u continue to watch over qianyi!may ur angels continue to protect her&see her through each day!i pray that God,u'll continue to use qianyi mightly!let her be the light that will shine for u,and give her the wisdom&the boldness to share ur word to all her friends&non-christians out there.that through her God,more may come to know u!

i also ask that God,as qianyi enters a new school and another phase of her life,u'll always remind her that indeed God,u'll never leave her nor forsake her,and u're going to see her through 2009 once again!

even as qianyi sets her new new year resolutions,i pray that God,u'll give her the motivation,encouragement and determination to wanna complete and fulfill each and every one of the resolutions she has made.

be it doing her qt regularly or be it wanting to experience ur presence God,i pray that u'll just constantly remind her not to give up,but press on!Lord i also pray that u'll help qianyi to grow spiritually and even closer to u in this year 2009!give her a heart that will yearn for more of u,and give her a greater passion for the lost!

not forgetting her Os God,u know how much effort qianyi has put in for her Os.and so God,i ask that u'll giv qianyi good&excellent results.results that she can use to glorify ur name so that her friends will know&believe that indeed it is u,the almighty and true-living God that has allowed and gave qianyi these excellent results

lastly,i pray that in this year 2009,u'll help qianyi to grow closer to her family members too.i pray that God u'll just help qianyi to have endurance and to control whenever she's talking to her parents.help her to have a better attitude towards her parents.so that tgt as a family,they can serve u&praise u tgt(:

and so Lord God,i ask that u'll bless qianyi with a meaningful&great 2009!i pray that u'll also continue to put in her life strong Chiristians who will encourage her/each other in times of need,God-fearing pple who will help qianyi grow closer to u,friends whom qianyi can trust and rely on,and most importnatly,friends whom qianyi can evangelise to!

once again,i pray for this beloved child of urs God,may u continue to pour ur richest blessings over qianyi&her family.In Jesus' Name i pray and ask Lord,AMEN!

I thank God for Elena, thank God for the friends in my life and the people whom I met during camp. Most importantly, THANK YOU GOD FOR THE THINGS YOU'VE PLANNED IN MY LIFE! <3

Girl, I saved it, I will keep this prayer :D

ohmygoodness, i'm like smiling so retardedly =/

BYE 2008,

HELLO 2009!
:D

New year resolutions:
1. do my qt regularly
2. to experience God's presence
3. single points for o's
4. better temper/attitude towards my parents
.
.
.
there might be more.


2 corinthians 3:18 (nkjv)
But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just like the spirit of the Lord.


I believe this year would be a better year :D i hope. haha

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

15 July'92
Nan Hua High
205'06, 403,08
Church of Our Saviour