Sometimes, your heart tells you to do something, but in the end, you are afraid of making the wrong choices. That's how I feel now. I'm very scared I'd regret my choices. I dreamt of njc before o's, and I have been asking, whether that is where God wants me to be in. But I have chosen not to put nj due to the huge and enormous number of applicants that makes me stand no chance, like maybe 0.00000000000000000000001% Tj as first choice isnt that bad, but there would not be many/any nanhua people there! since its like at the other end of Singapore, other than the IP students like shufen and yintong. Everyone is asking me to put nj first but I've submitted, and I seriously hope it isn't as bad as what I think.
God will make all things work together for my good, amen! I gotta learn to trust and have faith. Wherever I'm posted to, it's His will. But somehow, I get really sad when everyone is trying hc and nj cause I could have been the one if not the fact of that unexpected sub. over. Somehow now, I really hope I go tj. ahhhhhhhh *prays hard*tata, lunch then meeting fangyu :D
&still trying to find a happy ending
