Biology paper tomorrow and I'm starting to panic. Can't seem to remember what I have studied, what if I have a mental breakdown all of a sudden. A blank image, or information blocked, whatever.

I hate it when people say I study/mug so hard and end up in sa. Or, they keep saying "oh, of course your school can luh, its a party school" Whatever man. Does it mean that everyone who goes into that school are party people. It's not like I dreamt to be in that school or whatsoever. Who wouldnt want to go into a better school, just cause I bloody failed hcl ):

Whatever, just gonna mug hard and get my A's, and find out what's God purpose of putting me in my fourth choice when I could have gotten into my first or second.

Sucks.

Like a flower quickly fading,
A wave tossed in the ocean.

Sometimes, it's hard to fully understand the rough road that you're going through. But no one said it was going to be easy. Where was the faith that you once had? The complete trust and passion, the burning desire to see miracles happen in front of your eyes, waking up everyday to find that it's a brand new day that He had created, knowing that there're always new mercies?
Why are you taking things for granted, focusing on only the temporary, why.


Ephesians 6:11
"Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes."

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are


For greater things have yet to come
And greater things have still to be done in this city

There's always such joy and peace to know of God's assurance.
Few more days to school reopen, to common test, gotta hang in there.

I'm holding on, to the rock I cling :D

Forever we'll be, forever.*

*with an addition of Jiayu (:
It's always such a joy to go out with them :D

Oh and my sandals broke again, for the 3rd time this year. I seriously think there's a curse with me and shoes, damn. Haha

Pressure is in, hate it whenever I gotta think about pw, screws my life ):
Like a flower, quickly fading. I need the strength to carry on.
Lead me Lord, somewhere You want me to be, where I should be.

Famine camp somewhat changed my thinking of my present life, something to be glad about. Though it's not a dramatic change but I think I've learnt to be satisfied with the things I have. I never thought I was about to fast for 30hours straight, I never knew how it felt to be in poverty, how dirty they can get. It was really a great experience and I never regret not going even though it was tough and time consuming.

I CAN, I WILL

MAKE A DIFFERENCE :D





Crushing newspapers, piles and piles of them, and filling about half the room with them, making it somewhat like a garbage dump for the campers to search for things, as though they were hunting for treasure in third world country. Black and dirty hands and legs, sweaty shirt...but it's fun. I have never felt so dirty in my life before, and tired. Even the second day, there was newspaper collection around Tampines,but I'm glad my lorry driver and helper were nice people. They helped us, brought laughter to us and bought drinks for us. :D

Ohoh, and Utt was there too, for some MTV reporting or something. He's cute :D

Anyway, after listening to the true life story of a 8years old boy with AIDS, it really touched my life. Being asked whether he was happy with his life, he said "I'm happy!" And this puts thousands/millions of thoughts running through my mind. If he is happy with his life, why aren't I? If he can go through such a painful and poor life, what makes someone healthy and living in a first world country dissatisfied/grumble?



But still, I need a breakthrough in my life, I need the burning desire and passion for You once again, just like how it used to be 5 years ago.

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

15 July'92
Nan Hua High
205'06, 403,08
Church of Our Saviour